Friday, July 21, 2006

gone

two nights ago she was curled up on my lap as I held her hand.
she kissed me as if I was the only person she would kiss for the rest of her life.
I had a best friend who was also my girlfriend.
there was no one else that I would rather laugh with.
no one else I would rather be made a fool in front of.
no one else I would rather share my fears with.
no one else I would rather cry with.
no one else I would rather discuss my faith with.
no one else I would rather share my life with.

now it's over. I got dumped.

so what do I do with this ocean of love that seems permanently chained to my heart?
this love isn't for just anyone.
it can't be transferred or voided.
I wish it didn't hurt this badly.
I miss her more today than when she was thousands of miles away.
My emotion is spent.
I feel like week-old death.
everything is gray.
God, show me your grace.

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey Eric :)

I'm so sorry about you and Virginia. I really thought it was going to work out between you two. However, God has everything happen for a reason and you are an awesome guy. I've been so amazed by your encouragement toward others and your great attitude. You are going to find an amazing girl someday. Keep your chin held high. Everything is going to be okay. Just trust God and know that you have a ton of people to lean on while you go through this.

Love ya :)
Emily Clauss

Doug Witte said...

Don't worry Eric we can cuddle soon. What? I mean .. uh .. shoot.

But seriously, I'm sorry to hear about that. It sucks. If you need to talk or just want to hang out and forget about it for a while, give me a call.

Q said...

Your mama is always on your side...loves you to death...and knows you are a wonderful man. I have hugs for you...

Shannon said...

OH Eric,

What an answer to prayer that now you know. You have your answer. That Virginia is not the one for you. And as much as you may not agree with that and may despise the answer that God has given you. He has. And you should be thankful for that, becuase what he has in store for you is only so much greater for what you need in your life, and for what Virginia needs. It's always the hardest realization when God does not agree with our wants. But he knows the desires of our hearts. And if I've learned anything in the past few years, it's how amazingly faithful God is and how much we can see his face in times like these if we only pull close to him.

Cindy Kingsbury said...

Eric:
Dave and I are very very sorry! We wanted so badly for you and Virginia to work out. You are a great guy though and God will use this trial for His glory. Someday you'll understand why this happened. Grieving is so hard, isn't it? You are in our prayers.

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